31 Days of Servant Leadership: Truth

What is truth?

Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies. ~Philippians 4:8 The Message

Do you too often listen to lies – from society, the voices in our heads, from even other Christians?

Next week, I travel across the country to attend Allume.

This week, especially today…I am overwhelmed. Worried over forgetting to finish something before I leave. Wondering how I will fit everything I want to bring there and back and hoping I don’t forget anything important. Stressing about the blog posts I have yet to write or schedule. Anxious about my babies who want to come with me and wondering how they’ll do school with Dad. Concerned about all that I might miss while not here (control freak!). Trying to let it go that Dad can’t do their hair right. Praying no one gets sick (including me!) and everything goes smoothly, that there are no injuries, and the weather is nice on both sides of the country. I don’t have time to have anxiety about the conference, see?

But, what is truth?

Truth is when my eyes are opened to the needs of my family. Truth is when God whispers and I listen to Him instead of the shouting doubtful voices in my head. Truth is when I realize my selfishness is affecting the harmony of my family.

Servant leadership is about service before self (more on that next week).

Truth? I’ve been neglecting our homeschool. I’ve been neglecting our chore schedule. I’ve been neglecting our meal plan.

I’ve struggled with me, me, me. What example am I setting for my children?

I need to exhibit servant leadership if I am going to teach it to my babies. I have to be their model, their example. I tell Elizabeth that her siblings look to her for how they should act, look, answer and she needs to be diligent to be a good example for them to follow. How much more should I be a good example to all of them?

It’s easy to procrastinate lessons and meal planning and cleaning when there’s no one checking. My husband is gracious to seldom complain. I am the big complainer! When selfishness takes over, I play the martyr.

I have to examine my worldview. I have to focus on my calling to be a mother and homeschool teacher. I have to be more diligent to manage my household well.

Bombarded with lies from the world and the compromised Christian community, both of which tell me to take more time for myself, even at the expense of my family. It’s all about self-esteem, feeling good, looking good, prosperity, what others think, comparison.

No.

So, after this series, the blog is on hold. I have a couple of reviews to complete, but other than that…a sabbatical, if you will.